The Beginning

On March 7th, 2018 I called my best friend Leah and demanded she have a wine night with me. The last couple weeks I had been soul-searching and trying to find a new direction to take in life. After two glasses of wine, I told her, " I just need a change, I feel like my life is stagnant and I'm not growing or evolving. I'm just staying the same." She recommended that maybe I should travel more and I told her I agreed. Maybe that would be the answer and the clarity I needed..... Well, a week later I found out that I definitely would get what I was asking for, but it wouldn't be in the shape of an exotic trip out of the country. 

My job is pretty demanding. I have to be on my feet all day, smiling, making cocktails, shaking cocktails, and entertaining guests. The life of a bartender is in no way just a casual walk in the park. Generally, by the time I start my shift I am at least two espressos deep. By then I'm ready to go and take on the challenging day. However, on March 13 ( which was a Monday for me) there was not enough caffeine to keep me awake. I struggled all day to keep up. The next couple days were pretty similar and let's not forget how heavy my chest felt! ( Seriously, my boobs hurt so bad I thought they were going to fall off). I thought it was just a bad time of the month....but I felt worse the next day. By Saturday, which was also St. Patrick's Day, I had a strange suspicion I was pregnant. I could just feeeellll it. I never understood what ladies meant when they said this, but it is so true! You just know! I told myself I would wait to take a test. After all I had been on birth control for years, what were the odds I was actually pregnant?